Vicky Pattison broke down in tears on today’s This Morning as she revealed cheating John Noble blames her for their split.
The couple were engaged and had planned to visit wedding venues on the day he was spotted getting up to no good in Dubai.
Vicky admitted she has ‘humiliated’ over the images of him getting close to part-time model Poppy Owen at a nightclub in Dubai.
But John has refused to apologise and controversially claimed Vicky was at fault because of the "position" of fame she is in.
The former Geordie Shore star questioned her own self-worth but is fighting to be back to her confident self – and will hand back her engagement ring.
Vicky wiped away the tears while speaking about her split
Vicky said John blamed her for their break-up
Vicky said: "We’ve spoken probably a handful of times and he’s instigated most of that contact to be fair.
"It’s not positive. He’s not remorseful. There’s no guilt or contrition. He doesn’t think he’s done anything wrong.
"He says he didn’t cheat and hasn’t done anything wrong. He actually said he was set up and it was my fault because of the position I’m in."
Vicky and John on holiday in Dubai in October 2018
Vicky steel feels anger towards John
Vicky admitted she doesn’t love John and still feels angry for what he did.
She confessed: "I questioned myself. I thought maybe if I was thinner he would have loved us, or if I looked more like ‘those’ girls he wouldn’t haven done what he did.
"But at the end of the day it’s not about me. I couldn’t make John love me or make him a man. I’m getting there him getting stronger. I’m getting the old sparkle back."
Vicky is going ahead with her new reality TV show
However, she is glad to have ‘dodged a bullet’ and admitted it was better that John’s antics were exposed before they got married and had kids.
She said: "I think the most common used phrase I’ve had said to us is ‘you’ve dodged a bullet’.
"It is hard to see it at the time when you’re hurt and angry. But if this is something he had in his locker it’s better it happened now before we got married and had kids."
Holly was shocked by John’s actions
Vicki also breaks down in tears in a trailer for her new reality TLC show Vicky Pattison: The Break Up, which she admitted was a "controversial" decision to carry on with.
She says: "A week ago I was marrying him. He’s my future and my life – the man I thought I was going to be spending the rest of my life with. And I wanted babies with him.
"And now I’ve seen him with his hands on so many different women. And he hasn’t apologised."
In an emotional Instagram post, she said: "The worst thing is not the lies, the betrayal, the constant pain or crippling humiliation, or the resounding heartbreak that hurts so much I swear it is physical not emotional, the worst thing is that the person who made you feel so special yesterday can make you feel so truly low and unwanted today."
Vicky and John in September 2017 shortly after getting engaged
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Vicky carried on with her professional duties and made a big statement when she appeared on This Morning at the end of last year.
The Geordie lass removed her engagement ring as she joined Georgia Toffolo to talk about I’m A Celebrity.
Vicki’s wedding show project was halted due to John’s infidelity, but filming will continue, with the focus of the show changing to Vicky alone, rather than her romantic life.
*This Morning airs weekdays on ITV at 10.30am
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