Ariana Grande choked back tears as she accepted Billboard’s ‘Woman of the Year’ award.
In an emotional speech she said that 2018 had been the worst year of her life.
In a voice brimming with emotion she said “This is really special. I want to say that I find it interesting that this has been one of the best years in my career and one of …like …the worst years in my life.”
It’s been a year which has seen the death of her ex-boyfriend Mac Miller and the end of her relationship with Saturday Night Live’s Pete Davidson.
It was only last year, too, that she was profoundly affected by the mass murder at her Manchester Arena concert by suicide bomber Salman Ramadan Abedi after she described herself as ‘broken,’ cancelled her tour and flew home to be with her mother.
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Her Billboard speech went on: “I’m just saying that because I feel like a lot of people would look at someone in my position right now I guess – Woman of the Year, an artist that could be at her peak and think, ‘She’s really got her s*** together, she’s really on it, she has got it all’ I do, but as far as my personal life goes I really have no idea what the f*** I am doing.
Ariana said her priorities have changed after being tried with "such serious s**t"
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“So yeah, it’s been a very conflicting one.”
“I just want to say if you’re someone out there who has no idea what this next chapter is going to bring, you’re not alone in that.”
Ariana is looking back on a tumultuous year
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Ariana says that she’s already working on her fifth album, to be called ‘Thank U, Next after her current single.
She said the song was the product of "feminine energy and champagne and music and laughter and crying".
She added: "This [album’s] not particularly uplifting. A lot of it sounds really upbeat, but it’s actually a super sad chapter.”
Ariana has opened up about the testing time she’s endured lately, saying she can’t even say ‘good morning’ to someone "without crying", and that she no longer "gives a s**t about what people think".
The star said her priorities have changed after being tried with "such serious s**t" and that all she wants is to "be happy and healthy one day" and to keep making music.
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